I have not blogged for a bit… As many of you will realise, caring for someone with terminal cancer is far from a walk in the park.
It is often a bewildering fog… Who do I call? Who do I ask? What services are available? How can I stop this pain? Where can I get a hospital bed? What can I give her to eat? How many visitors can she handle? How is Dad coping? How are my brothers?

I have been shocked that there is so little information available (at least that I have been told about) on how to deal with the practical aspects of life right now… and I really praise God that He is the ROCK that stays solid and firm. The family have been remarkable in terms of practical care. My sister-in-law-to-be for example sent me 5 large meals yesterday when my brother visited. I could have cried with the sense of relief that I can tick shopping off my lengthening to do list…

In fact, it is no longer a list… it is a book where I write down Mum’s current Medication, strength, frequency… her bank details and passwords, her funeral wishes, important numbers of who to contact (as and when I glean the salient information) building society details, friends who have visited and thank you notes that need sending.

I said to Jon yesterday that I feel as though someone has given me a new full time job that I didn’t apply for and don’t have the right experience for.

This is not what God says over me however. This morning as I shared that little thought with Him, He spoke gently over me words that Moses must have heard a number of times, “Tell them I AM has sent you.”

There isn’t much of a come back to that is there?

If God thinks I can, then I can. Not because of what I know and what I can do, but because of who HE is and what HE can do. If God thinks you can, you can!

So today, with God’s help, leaning FULLY on Him, I am putting the CAN in CANCER.
And one day, perhaps I shall write a VERY HELPFUL book for families that helps them do the same.

The comforting and beautiful Hebrew script above says “The GREAT I am.”