“I’ve never considered myself a fearful person. If you don’t know me, I’ve moved halfway across the world to serve Jesus, I’m always up for trying new food, and I enjoy anything outdoors—hiking, kayaking, zip lining, etc.
However, in the last few months I’ve learned that I’m petrified.
I’m a daydreamer scared to live out the dream.
What is this thing that’s paralysing me? A change in careers? No. Buying a house? No.
Writing this blog.
That’s my fear, but before you shrug me off, listen.
I studied journalism at university, received a writing award (or two) and always dreamt of being a magazine editor or travel writer. Believe me, my mind can wonder for hours thinking about where “Daydream Mariava” can go.
It’s not just writing that gives me the shivers (although that’s the sore spot at the minute). “Daydream Mariava” would also ROCK at being a nature photographer, and on the side she would play an instrument in a philharmonic.
I know I’m not the only one that dreams, but am I the only one that can’t even take the first step in the right direction?
That’s when it hit me — I’m not scared of writing, I’m scared of writing and failing. I’m scared that my daydreams won’t ever see reality. I’m worried that maybe, just maybe, my dreams are far better than reality could ever be, so why wake up from the dream?
The true reality is that God doesn’t want the fear of failure to stop us from pursuing what He has called us to do. We are created in His image, and that image is love.
1 John 4:18 “There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.”
Isaiah 54:4 “For I am the Lord your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.”
I don’t think it’s just me. We all need the reminder that God is on our side. He is with us every step of the way. Even the first step that seems too overwhelming or not worth taking. All I have to do is look back over my life to see how God time and time again has surpassed my expectations and dreams. What’s stopping Him now?
It’s time for “Daydream Mariava” to come out of the clouds, trust her creator and simply take a step. I hope every daydreamer out there can do the same.
Thank you Ems for inviting me out of my comfort zone and believing in me.”